I wished on a shooting star for you, did you know that?
I was lying on a beach one night in the summer of 2010, longing for the clouds to shift enough for the perseid meteor shower to do it’s thing. Then it happened; a brilliant flash of light darted across the sky. And I wished. With all my heart I wished. For you. For you to come to us, to change our world.
And nine months later there you were. And right from the start you changed everything. You changed me. I found a strength and determination I didn’t know I had to get you safely into the world. You made me raw and vulnerable in a way that only a new parent can be.
You’ve kept me on my toes your whole life. Just when we thought we had things figured out a new change would come along.
Because that’s life, isn’t it. Life is change.
And right now, there’s a big change happening. You’re starting full-time school.
You seem ready. You had a great time in the nursery class last year, and you’re familiar with the idea of school.
So, I think this change is more dramatic for me. Our life together has changed, and it can never go back. Daddy and I are taking a deep breath and slowly taking another tiny step back.
There’s a part of me that longs to keep you close. To hold on tight to my little boy who, not long ago, I wished on a star for. I want to keep you just as you are, but I know that’s just now how life works. You have to grow, you have to change, that’s just the way it is.
So here’s what I’ll do; I’ll hold on extra tight when you hold my hand as we walk. I will cherish every last kiss you ask for outside school. Too soon I know you’ll be ‘too old’ for these things.
It really does make me so proud, seeing the boy you’re growing in to. How loving you are. How passionate. I just don’t want the outside world to change you. I want you to stay strong in who you are.
Everything changes. That’s just life. Just don’t let life change you too much ok? You are wonderful, just as you are.
I love you,